I need to get back to studying, there are quite a number of exam questions that I yet have to answer to make my day. So I hope typing this potentially lengthy post won’t exhaust my eyes.
So, when guys just want to get lucky – And when it shows, and you know it. Oh let me correct that, I meant, when Bruneian guys just want to get lucky. And when they try to hide it, but it shows – motherfuckers, you seriously think I don’t know? Or maybe, you simply think I would want you too? — I probably won’t twitch if these guys were Westerners as its well-understood that there’s this term called “societal differences” — Hehe! But to get that from Bruneian guys is just abnormal, on my part – most probably due to the lack of ‘direct’ exposure to these type of Bruneian dudes.
From “The Crap We Put up with Getting on and off an Airplane”
I am open to just about everything, and I’m the least judgmental about anything at all. I definitely have my own thoughts about all the corruptions in the society and the world as a whole, and yaaa~ my values and personal beliefs may or may not change as I grow. People do not have and hold on to the same beliefs, values and views; and I definitely don’t mind blending in with these people, but its disappointing that a lot of these “premarital sex culture” have soaked up into them that they start to generalize it to everyone else, with the belief that ALL OTHER BRUNEIANS (+me) find casual sex or premarital sex normal in our daily lives. So on my part, as a person with a lot of indirect exposures, but with lack of experience with direct exposures – I find it strange; and especially disgusted when they try to get on to you ++++ they are from your circle of friends (HAHA?) man – it is uncomfortable. Because Brunei is (or was? Or I thought it was…?) different.
Okay. Maybe its just the way I was raised, or the groups of people I socialize with before I was ‘directly’ exposed to this – or the guys that I have dated were really decent guys. Well Alhamdulillah to that, mm that’s why I went out with them in the first place…? Haha! Obviously. Well, probably its the combination of everything. Manusia khayal dunia, sudah lupa agama. Maybe ingat, tapi inda takut tuhan – there ya’ go. I am a damn hypocrite when I say that, and I know where I stand. I have my sins, my weaknesses and I make mistakes too. I’m a sinner. But I know this little faith that I have, still guides me on what’s right and wrong. And it gives me fear. And these boys think that they could get onto me – But naaa. Doesn’t work like that with me. I am not judging these people, they are good people, really. I am just telling my story, of how I’m like.
If you like me, kisses won’t make me like you back. It will take more than that. Definitely, nothing like that.
Cintai-nya kerana agama-nya. Thank you, ma. You raised me well. And because its my choice, its what I choose to be. Its what I choose to believe.